Tujh mein rab dikhta hai ya nahi ??? Pata Nahi !!!

I was thinking of the moments spent with a certain someone who was, is and will be very close to my heart and humming the lines mentioned below. This song was from a popular Shah Rukh Khan (SRK) starrer movie and the lines were perfectly mushy and it always made my knees wobble and skip a heart beat as I remembered that pretty face in front of my eyes. I'm a pseudo-atheist myself and don't believe in God till there is a need or rather greed. That might be the reason why God Almighty never blessed me with my desires!

Hindi: Tujh mein rab dikhta hai
Yaara mein kya karun
Sajde Sar jhukta hai
Yaara mein kya karun

Eng: I See God In You
My Love, What Am I To Do?
I Bow My Head Before You
My Love, What Am I To Do?

Once when I was humming the song, my friend Mrs. Kambalia said that she doesn't believe that you can find God in the one you love. She hated the whole point that love can make her see God in a person she loves. She hated the existence of such a thought! For her God and love were not even comparable. After that I totally forgot all about the song and the discussion, until today when I hummed the song at work and it brought back all the memories associated with it. Then, I thought maybe I should pen down my thoughts about this song and share it with Mrs. Kambalia and other readers.

My Explanation:

God doesn't have physical existence in our lives nor can we feel that Almighty Power. But, as all the great poets and writers have said: God Is Love, when we submit ourselves to our lovers or partners and love them more than they do to us or more than anyone, you will see God or his semblance in your partner. In order to be in that state of enlightenment and to see your God's 'shadow', you need to be in deep love or love trance with your partner and that comes with trust and knowing the person.

Once you reach that level, you will find your God in that person, your partner or lover. And, you'll feel Peace and Tranquility that you've never experienced. This is not restricted to just lovers, but in any relation like parents, grandparents, relatives, brothers/sisters, in-laws, friends, acquaintances, business partners and so on. To be in love is to be free, like free falling in Bungee Jumping. You feel good, even when your hurt, when your guts feel like they are in your mouth due to high gravitational forces.

Unconditional love is like heaven, when you give all your love without expecting anything in return. Love, Peace (Inner & Outer), Trust etc. makes you feel over the top and you forget all your past troubles and problems and become one with your God via your lover/partner.

Hope, you find your true love one day pretty soon. It would elevate you and your senses and then you will call or email me to say, "You were so right earlier, my friend. Yes, yes, yes, I can find my God in my partner. I was wrong when I debated on this. Thanks, for showing me the way. For showing me the true love that I always lacked."

Sincere best wishes for all my readers.

Life Sukx or What?

Finally, My Flickr account and pictures crossed 1000 views (clap). This should perk up my mood for some time. But, I would have been happier if any of my pictures had been selected as Flickr Explore ~ the best picture for this month or been in the Last 7 days Interesingness section. Lo, human greed hast no ends! :D

Yesterday, I gave the test to appear for the job of Research Analyst and am sure that I flunked the paper. Wow, some try for it! :) Sometimes, when I look back at myself slogging on the workstation in office, I pity myself. Am I really happy with my current job as a Tech Support? Am I happy with the current reimbursement? Is this challenging enough for me? Are my skills being tested & utilized properly? Am I being creative at work?

All the above questions have only one answer for me ~ a big "NO". But, I'm still putting up with all these things and trying to survive, trying to beat the recession, trying hard not to face any new interviews and face rejection. Oh, I hate rejections so much & so does each and every other individual.

I guess I should have been immune to rejection by now as I've faced so many of them in my life that I could write a book on it titled ~ 'My Experiments With Failures'. I've been rejected from schools, colleges, graduation, life, love, alcohol... ah, the list just grows & grows. (:p)

Currently, I'm lost on what to do & how to do! I've asked a couple of friends for job vacancies in the field of photography, advertising, content writing etc. but chances of getting something without experience is impossible. I don't know how bad things can get as the days pass me by. Hope is the only option that I possess now. I'm going crazy.. Oh, I'm...

Test Shot using Sigma 18-200mm Lens

* PICTURE:



* CAMERA SETTINGS:

Camera: Nikon D40
Exposure: 0.003 sec (1/400)
Aperture: f/6.3
Focal Length: 200 mm
ISO Speed: 200
Exposure Bias: 0 EV
Flash: No Flash

* WRITE UP:

Here comes my test shot using the new Sigma 18-200mm OS HSM lens I purchased for approximately 23k from Mumbai. After days of reading all the possible reviews of the lens on the internet and waiting impatiently for it to arrive, I finally got a chance to test fire it.

Well, the pictures didn't turn out to be that interesting as the reviews or the users mentioned in their writeups. Maybe, it was because I was too impatient & with illness, I couldn't stay perfectly still to capture the best image possible. All my fault. LOL.

This picture was taken from my window as soon as I got up from bed in afternoon & felt a bit better from the fever. Spotted the 'Kite' flying in search of food and I knew I had to grab the camera, fix up the new lens from the box and shoot the best one I could possibly find.

So there you go! After seeing the picture on the camera screen, I was not at all impressed. So, I transferred the image to my computer and found that the image wasn't tact sharp. I forgot to keep the OS ~ Optical Stability button engaged prior to the shoot. Also, I could find the "Purple Fringe" on the bird's feather. Not good mate, I cursed myself.

I played with it in Photoshop and cropped the image so that it appears fairly large and used "Unsharp Mask" filter to make it a bit more sharper. The outcome is the picture mentioned above. I hope everyone likes it, least to say!